Merdeka!!

31-8-2011

Today hang out all the day wif my KL fren...meet some new fren also...
early in the morning go bali hai eat dim sum...then go gurney for movie...
watch SUMMER LOVE LOVE...after watching the movie i feel what i did was so simple n easy...it makes me feel sad n disappointed also...
dinner at james foo western food restaurant...the food quite nice for me...
went for some alcohol drink at the night...but unfortunately i cant get myself drunk...
which i plan to drunk myself...haih...
adee 4 days didn't contact wif her...donno what to say...donno what to think...donno how to do...donno what can i do also...one word for me LOSER!!
although i am missing her all the minutes n second...no matter what i do she will appear in my mind frequently...

going to bed now...night...

Holiday-ing

27-8-2011

Wow...last paper for today...well, same like usual no mood to study for it...
my this semester result is worst among all...what to do...no heart to study at all...
Going to be emo again although is holiday...feeling is the most important i think...
just a three times meet up adee so reluctant to let him back...how about me??
almost 3 months...nothing to be complain actually...suitable or not suitable is based on feeling...i noe who am i...i noe my status i noe my situation...
i noe whatever i did, it's still the same ending...it is difficult to change...
try to give up before but as u noe im not so easily to change and give up...it's very hard to find someone that i really like...donno this is consider as a strength or weakness for me??
what i can say now is good luck to u...although im not that kind person can really can make way for ppl...but i do hope that u will be happy!!i will be alright...
im going to leave KL in a few months time...im going back to my world...
Please do not simply open my door again!!im scare to be hurt again...it's really painful n hurtful...but from my face n what i said i wont given this kind of word...coz i really don wan u to be worry...

Sry IDA i really cant make u to an A standard result...im moodless to study...just hope that exam can pass n let me to have a long break...im really tired and exhausting...nobody can help me...im writing this not wan to get pity from all of u...i just wan to express myself...
im same like lonelyreload which he is my coursemate that seldom talk n like to write a lot in his blog...i can understand his feeling...im one kind of it also...we r from the same world...i wont rock the world, i will leave the world quietly...just let me alone...

18-8-2011

A simple post for today which suddenly having mood to blog...
Well, everything seem changes and impossible to get back to previous...
Donno what to say, but this is not what i hope to...
Maybe coz she don wan to hurt me again?maybe, maybe! maybe?
So, i will care about my actions and words to her...
NO more words such as love, like and miss...no more intimate space for me n her since she obviously rejecting me of doing "that" few days ago...
it is not like last time anymore which i can say and talk whatever i like or from the bottom of my heart to her...
I have to keep the everything inside my heart...not going to open without a key...
A magical and healing box that only know by me...
What YOU did was a memory to me forever!!
Lonely is not a problem for me...
Happy is not guaranteed with me...
True friend is hard to find and few with me...
Girl is nothing for me...Money is everything...
Don worry all my friend that care about me...
Life goes on...
I can handle this myself as how i handle my previous case...

15-8-2011

well, it one day after my 1 year so called "anniversary"...
i received a bad news once again...come on izit every year of the month august is a bad luck month for me??i doubt that...
get the answer that not supposed to know this few weeks...make me down n i have to say sry to u exam...i really have no mood to study for you at all...but i will try my best to get a better result(if i can la)...
Since the god has adee make decision for me...then it is ok for me...i have to accept it...
told u that im ok sure is lie u wan la...impossible right??im just a perfect thinker not a strong person...hurt quite deep for me...
hard to recover...not going to open my door easily again i promise...4 years of empty handed which i keep waiting for n i believe in...
Sry to tell u all that im going to be money face n selfish back...that my personality...fren me or just leave me alone??up to you...don fucking steps on my world if you all don like my attitude...
but i still will prepare that "part" which i have plan to do it few days ago in the future...that will be my last performance...
after that don tell me about this word "LOVE" anymore...
stand out of my fucking life...in my mind, you got the money you got the love...
THAT'S ALL!!

12-8-2011

有些事情不是努力后就一定能成功的。
虽然不是我想要的结果，但我不得不接受。
最好是像我的朋友告诉我的，享受那过程吧。
就不要想那么多，但我想告诉你
我的心情只能已这首歌来表达...

11-8-2011

didn't get to celebrate her bday with her...
but luckily i was able to finish the webpages that i created for her...
used up my whole night to do that...but the layout i have done it few weeks ago...
still in time to give her coz i was scare her ex will come and give her a surprise bday party...i scare lose and i scare loss...im so weak...sick of it!!

after viewing the webpages, she was so touched...
but i noe my dream will not be came true...
a bit happy but also a bit disappointed...

lastly, wish u happy birthday again...

8-8-2011

hmm...today should be a happy day for me end up a bit emo...
haha...maybe i was too care of wat she was saying...i guess so...
today derby match between ManUtd n ManCity...
as always ManUtd didn't disappointed me with the result of 3-2...
congrats to them...after that chatting wif my buddy...
u noe me the most...thx for spending ur time to chat wif me...
i feel better after that...

7-8-2011

hmm...yesterday was a good memory for me...donno how to describe the feeling...
just be happy at all the moment la...
what i can express now was everything in this song 張信哲-太想愛你...
it really express what inside my heart...everything will be fine right??hope so...

few days ago saw few of my secondary school friends have from single went into relationship...i was a bit jealous seriously but i really blessing for you all...
Must treat your gf nice...that what god giving for you but not me...must appreciate it from ur DEEPEST heart!!

虽然我怕寂寞，但我和寂寞永远都离不开，可能是命中注定吧。

4-8-2011

wow...so fast final coming adee...can the time pass slow??
hmm...ntg much to post today...
yesterday was my first time driving in KL...a bit scare coz first time...
but quite enjoy wif the moment...