End of April

Was happily waiting for the call but end up with disappointment.
Although I already predicted the outcome, but also will feel sad about it.
Delaying in replying the address that she stay twice make me frustrated.
And the phone call that sound not willing or plan to meet up with me.
First, I have no transport due to my brother replacement class.
Second, get a message that being told busy.
So, today activity was playing games again.
Derby match at midnight with disappointed result of 1-0 lose.
From now on I already have my answer.
And I knew what should I do from this sentence.
有些事情，处于被蒙状态会好比坦然、明明白白地清楚它。知道后，加深了心里的痛又需要很长的时间淡忘接受。痛后，也改变不了结局。
Don know what this mean for someone else or me?doubt that.
FULL OF QUESTIONS MARK AND HEART DIE!